Dresses

Ok, Tonya said she changed her mind about the dresses. Now they are either going to be hunter green or plum. I don't know the style except that they are somewhat like what we tried on before... Apparently you can order any dress in any color and size, not just what is in the store. Also, they are pushing the wedding back another year to 2006 , because her brother is getting married two weeks before the date they had set, and they don't want to put too much strain on their family and friends. I think she shouldn't worry about putting strain on other people, if she wants to get married then she should do it. It's their wedding, not their friends', not their family's. I really don't have a say though so I keep my mouth shut. :)

Stooopid Bank

I'm so tired of this. I don't like having a negative balance. I've never had to go through something like this before. I'm so mad at the bank.
I called them right away when I found out they took my money. They said they were going to send out this form for me to fill out and that I would get that by Friday. I didn't get anything. I waited thinking it might come the next day. I didn't get anything in the mail. I finally got to the phone before they closed. I got mean. I was so mad. I told the story to everyone they transferred me to, even the switchboard operator. I finally got to this one lady and told her the whole story, and how I had called and called to find out when I would be getting my money back. She finally told me, after many many minutes of being on hold, that I didn't have to fill out anything. They would be sending me a letter on Monday telling me that they are putting my money back in my account. They had better.
I want my money back. I want compensation for this. I shouldn't have to put up with this BS. I should be able to get to my money, not have some bank tell me I owe them money.
Stoopid bank.

Dresses 2

BLAH! This is the only dress I could find that Tonya tried on, and it's not the one she was thinking about getting.

http://www.davidsbridal.com/bridalgowns_detail.jsp?stid=971&prodgroup=91

We tried on this one- I tried on the greenish color and Wendy and Betsy tried on the lavenderish color.
http://www.davidsbridal.com/bridesmaids_dresses_dresses_detail.jsp?stid=1011&prodgroup=110
and this one
http://www.davidsbridal.com/bridesmaids_dresses_dresses_detail.jsp?stid=1172&prodgroup=110

Ok I am having a really hard time finding a dress like the one I want us bride's maids to wear... This one is kind of like it, except, it doens't have straps, the material is different and some other things. But it is close.
http://store1.yimg.com/I/discountdressup_1809_1848301

Sigh

My mom has to move in tomorrow. I have to move all my stuff out of the extra room, and she has to try to cram all her stuff in there. I don't know how long she is staying for, or how long I will stay after she moves in. I know she doesn't like living here, my grandparents drive her nutz. She can't move in iwth Missy because Missy wants to be on her own. Angie is moving in with Jay, I think. I don't think I'll be very happy here after awhile. I will probably start to actually act responsible and stuff over the next couple of months until I get enough money saved to move into my own place. Then it's "Boring Heather" for awhile. I won't have the money to go out anymore :(

Ok, lots and lots of pics of me

No, I am not just sitting there in a bra- it is a tank top.


I was thinking- Maybe I should change my hotornot pic to one of these, but I don't know which one. If anyone has a preference post it in comments. :)

Ok, another test

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I know this will get like totally boring- But oh well, this is kind of fun :D

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Another silly test

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Ok, This is like totally wrong. I am way more right brained than it says- more so than left anyway. I don't get that. Ok, well, I guess maybe I am both, but still more right than left. I mean yes I do analyze stuff unnecessarily and everything, but.. Ugh, I don't know.

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Dresses

I tried on the prettiest dresses today. I love the one Tonya said she wants us to wear. It's so frickin' awesome, I love the color- burgandy, I love the style, the cut, the way my butt looks in it, I loves that dress, I want that dress- she best not change her mind about it- I'll be so sad. :( I like the dress she picked for herself too :) it's so pretty, I'll have to search the net for some pics to give an idea of what it looks like, but it goes so well with the awesome bride's maids dresses she picked. Dude, I wanna wear that dress, I didn't wanna take it off.
We went to the Center (Er the mall) and we went to this bridal shop. We were gone for like 6 hours. It was tiring, but it was fun. I tried on so many dresses. I liked a few of them, but I REALLY liked one. I am not really big on dresses or skirts or anything. I generally only wear them if I absolutely have to, like all my jeans are dirty or I have to dress up for something (and now that I have like 20 pairs of jeans, I never have to wear that stuff :D ) . BUT- these were really pretty, and looked so good on me- and the ones that looked best looked good on everyone, three of the bride's maids went and we all have different body types...
Ok, Tonya's dress was so pretty, any of them she picks is going to look great. I almost cried because she looked so pretty ( and pms makes me all emotional... ).

Oh my gosh- this is funny. Ok- she has said before that she thinks it's really cute how my grandparents fight. Almost all of my friends have said this. They ARE cute when they fight. I always smile because they fight over silly things, and just the way they fight lets everyone in on how much they love each other. Well, I was over at their apartment, and they got into this fight, :D it was so cute... I totally thought of my grandparents, you can tell Tonya and John love each other. They fight in this cute silly way that just made me wanna smile. :D I wonder if they realize how cute they are as a couple.

I'm Ticked

Ok, why is it that all these people wanna meet me from hotornot and yet my rating is only a 5? What's with that? I know I'm not a 10, I'm not expecting that, but I'm way better than a 5.
http://www.hotornot.com/r/?eid=K8NRSZE&key=BLD

I know the pic is kind of dark and all that, and you can't see all that much of me, but still I think it's a good pic.

http://www.hotornot.com/r/?eid=OERESSN&key=QLF

Angie's rating is about the same as mine.

Slang

Ok, I had thought I already made a post like this, maybe it was on some forum or something...
Ok, I never liked slang terms, or even contractions. For a long time when I was a teenager I would not even say "can't" I would say "can not". I thought slang words and contractions made you sound either stupid or lazy. I just would not use them at all, of course I would still say the more "acceptable" words such as "Cool" and things like that, but there were reasons behind it. I eventually relaxed a bit about it. Then I started realizing how useful words like "yer" and "gonna" are at conveying not only meaning, but emotion and attitude. I like books that use dialect and slang in order to show who the character is, Stephen King is great about it, I just love reading his books, the one I'm reading now is full of dialect and slang and the languages of the different characters are all so colorful. I think the main reason I am using so much slang, etc. Lately is because of Stephen King. I am just having so much fun picking a dialect to show whatever I'm feeling- I'm in a goofy mood I start saying "yer" "Y'all" etc, I'm a little upset about something , but trying to show that I'm not really mad I start saying stuff like "I don e'en know wha you theenk yer doin, but you had best step the fuck up off me" LoL (Ok, to some that would sound like I'm really pissed so I only use that phrase around people I know will laugh so that it will kind of help lighten the mood a little. ) I'm just having a heck of a lot of fun with language lately. Part of the reason I am making this post is to let everyone in on this so Ya'll know when I'm serious. When I am in a bad mood, I will NOT use slang at all, it doesn't even occur to me to use it unless I'm either in a good mood, or am around someone who is using it a lot. So if I am posting something and you happen to notice the lack of slang or whatever then you will now know I'm bein all pissy and you don e'en wanna talk to me that day. :)

Drunken Dream

I dreamt of a mall, I was looking for someone and they were supposed to be in the mall. I couldn't find my way around. I almost knew where everything was because I had been there several times, but still got a little turned around, and there was this chick that worked there and she looked just like this actress that was on this episode of 3rd rock from the sun, I think she's on Gilmore Girls now, but in the dream the acting thing was just a one time deal and she got all embarrassed when people recognized her, especially since people don't think to see someone from TV working at a mall, anyways, so she was showing me around, and I didn't have shoes on, and we couldn't get to where the person I was looking for was at unless we went across the parking lot, so I was upset about having to cross this big old parking lot in my stocking feet, but we go across the parking lot and she hopped into her bf's car (red convertible) before we got to the building, it wasn't until then that I realized how familiar she looked, then I was like "You might think this is weird but- you look like this chick that was on this one show...." At first I was thinking "Dharma & Greg" Then I was like noo... I couldn't quite place her, and her bf was like "you mean 5th stone from... blah blah" I don't know exactly what he said but it was something like that and I was like "Do you mean 3rd Rock From The Sun??" and he was like "Oh yeah..." And started saying how she found it embarrassing to have been an actress and be recognized for that little role, since she was only on there like once. Then they had to leave, so I went on towards the building, it was supposed to be part of the mall but it was not connected to it, and it was a school. I went in looking for who ever it was I was looking for, and then there is John Lithgow, (seriously I almost never have "celebrity dreams" so I don't even know what was with this one- I don't even watch TV right now, only thing I've watched is cartoons and Charmed both with Caitlyn) not the the way he looked in 3rd rock, but more like he looked back around the time he made Raising Cain, but of course not any of the characters he played in that. He was my friend's dad? I think, or mine, I'm not really sure- but he felt like a father figure for some reason, and he was talking with this group of kids, and I went to go help someone and then I was in an auditorium, in the audience, and my friend was laying down in the seats, she was pregnant- VERY pregnant, she was HUGE ( not completely unrealistically big- but it almost looked like she was over due to have triplets ) , she wasn't going to have the baby right then and there, but I thought she would probably have it the next day. I was trying to calm her down anyway, I think she was having contractions, I kept my hand on her stomach to make her feel better, I kept it there for a long time, and while I was trying to calm her and stuff I was talking to Tonya and Angie and someone else, I don't know what we were talking about... Then she went home and we all sat in different places in the theater, there was a screen up, I think we had watched a movie, then we were all tired. I was really tired, and laid down in the seats, then these two guys came out and one of them had roses, he gave one to Angie, one to Tonya , one to everyone there, I felt left out, then he got around to giving one to me. I was happy. I smelled the rose, it was pretty, I think it was orange. Then since we were so tired we went back to my place. We were in my bedroom, it was me, Angie, two other girls and a bunch of guys. A car kept driving by the house, back and forth, going really fast, the guy that was driving yelled stuff out his window, something about me- either I fucked him over or something- all I remember hearing is the words "Heather" and "fuck" . It was totally freaking me out, cause I wasn't sure who the guy was and it was weird. Then he stopped, and some of the people left. Then it was just Angie, some guy, and me in the room. I heard some loud noise and went into the living room to find out what it was. My uncle was there, he had had to move in because he lost his house or something, and he was there with like 6 kids, none of them looked like any of the kids he really has. One of them was saying that I was in my room fucking. I thought this was totally inappropriate for such a small child to say. I told my uncle that I would not use such language in front of the kids, but just to let him know, I was not doing anything like that, I was just in my room hanging out, that Angie was in there too, and even if I did like the guy I would not be having sex in front of my sister- and could he please explain to the child that not only was what she said not true, but that it was rude to say that in that way. Then he started talking about my music being too loud and all this other stuff, I was like, "Ok, I'm sorry, I didn't know that you could hear that out here, if you had let me know that it was too loud I would have turned it down." Then he said something about having been knocking on the door for a long time trying to get me to turn it down, but I didn't hear him. Then I said "Well, I know now, and I will turn it down, but you have the TVs in here up really loud too, will you turn that down when I turn mine down?" So he was like "Ok, whatever" so then I went back in my room and was telling Angie and that guy what just went on because they asked me what took so long. Then I woke up.

OH MY Gawd

I just got to say Whooo Hoooo
Ok, so Angie and I went to the bar, there were a couple of cutie pies there, but didn't really talk to them ( if you are reading this and being like "What do you mean you didn't talk to me, we talked all night." then STOP & THINK "Do I fit into the cutie pie category?" :) Ok, so Angie was talking to one of them- or not talking but doing that silly-playground-I-like-you-so-I-gotta-throw-stuff-at-you kind of thing. But that comes into play a little later.
Ok, we get to the bar around like 9:30, we only have a short amount of time to enjoy ladies' night- it ends at 10 :( so we go in, get carded, and while we are standing there Wes comes up and says something like that the security guy wants to double check our IDs or something- I was like "Whatever", so we go over to the tables, again there are like 7 tables put together, they don't like us putting them all together like that, it blocks dance floor access apparently. So I sit down and Angie goes over to talk to Christy. I was sitting between Wes and Robin or Robyn, I don't know how she spells her name... I was asked to read a couple of palms but it really felt like an off kind of night so I was like "Let me drink a little more and I'll do a better job for you." Then once I was finally drunk and feelin really good no one asked me to read them. Anyways, so we were all sitting there talking and drink and Angie was throwing stuff and getting things thrown at her. I was drinking vodka and cranberry juice, and I would have been just fine if I had not gone and drank that little bit of beer... I seriously only poured out like 1/4 of a glass and only had a couple of drinks from it, and it screwed me all up. I am not entirely sure of the sequence of events after that- I know that I finally got a dime to stand on it's side, Robin made Angie cry, I talked to Gary about movies and music or something, found out he knew of Sister Mary Rotten Crotch, exchanged email addys, joked around with Wes, called Tonya, Wes and Gary left, then later we left. Ok, I didn't really MEAN to call Tonya, I was thinking about it, and messing around with Angie's cell phone, then the phone was ringing and I was like "OOps" So I went outside and talked to Tonya on the phone. They set a date! October 8th of next year. I am going to help Tonya pick out her dress and stuff tomorrow, and (EEEEEEE Whoo hooo) I'm going to be a bride's maid! I have never been asked that before, not even in someone's fantasy wedding plans they don't include me. They are all like "I'm going to have this person, this person and this person as bride's maids..." I'm like "Hey, what about me??" I think I've only been to like 3 weddings in my life, one was when I was 14, one was Angie's , and one was my cousin Tiffany's wedding, I played the music at Tiffany's wedding- er I hit play on the boom box. So, this is really really cool :D Ok, so back to the bar... We decided that since Angie could not yet drive we would go to this other bar with Christy, Mike, Jana, Kim, and I don't know if anyone else went with us. So we get there and they are doing karaoke. They do not however have "Smells Like Teen Spirit" or "Welcome To Planet Motherfucker- Psychoholic Slag" so I didn't put in to sing one, I sang along with everyone else though. It was fun. There were a couple of cute guys there that I flirted with but it was just lite flirting. Then we went to Kim's place to sleep it off a bit. I got sick. It was not good, it was all because of the beer- I know I should stay away from it, and usually I do (I think the main reason I drank it was to show that I can handle it- guess I really can't). So, Kim calls down her son to come babysit me. He helps me into the apartment. We sit and talk for a bit. Then the bring out pillows and a blanket and we all lay down.
I was just laying there and someone starts touching me...
I was like "Huh?"
Then it just felt soooo good. I was like "Kick ass".
You should have heard all the moaning going on. It was cool.
I'm not even sure who it was.
I think they kept switching back and forth.
It was like this orgy of massage.
I got my back popped :) Angie says she wished that someone had gone a little further down on her back, because her lower back has been killing her for a couple of days. Then the 3 guys went off to bed and Angie and Kim start talking about sex. Seriously don't even wanna repeat what they were talking about in detail. Then I was like "Babysitter, help me..." and stuff, just being silly. Then they agreed to stop talking about that, and we went to sleep. I think we left around 5:30 ish and stopped for McDonald's egg sandwiches, I was still really messed up. I was barely aware of where we were. I think I got home a little before 6, but I wouldn't swear that... Then I'm in bed, the room is spinning and the phone rings. I did not even want to get up , but I did finally answer the phone. It was Angie, she had accidentally pushed some button on her cell phone and all I heard was her getting Matt up for school.
I went to sleep and had this funky dream. I woke up still drunk.
I would not suggest anyone trying this at home. It's not all that great- I feel icky today- I have cat hair on me from sleeping on the floor, my stomach feels so icky, my head feels funny, etc.

Caitlyn and her painting

Ok

Alrighty, I finally have some time to sit down and blog without people IMing me all the time :D
Ok, where did I leave off? OK, I had gone to the mall... Hmmm. Well, sometime after that I talked to Tonya on the phone, and we decided to go out like last Wed. and play pool. So, she picked me up and we went to Wal-Mart- OMG sidenote - Ok, while we were at Wal-mart I picked up all these canvases and stuff I needed, we get up to the cash register and it all adds up to like 30 dollars-ish and since I am perpetually cashless I tried to put it on my card, it didn't go through, I swiped the card again, nothing, I only had 3 bucks on me so I had to put everything back except this paint thinner that I totally need, and I even had to borrow 50 cents from Tonya so I could pay for tax. Then we went to the gas station to check my balance on their ATM, and it wouldn't go through. So we went to my bank's ATM and still nothing. So I was cashless the whole night. I called the next day and found out the bank had some screwy system thing and that it was taken care of, then a couple days later I check my online account info and find out that not only did they take out the money that I was TRYING to spend at Wal-Mart, but since I ran the card through twice they were charging me DOUBLE the amount, now I have an overdraft charge and all this because of them, so I complained and it will take like up to two weeks for me to get my money back and until then I am overdrawn at the bank. I'm a little peeved, I'm alot peeved, I'm so frickin ticked off. I'm PMSing and I even started crying today when I got the letter from them sayin that I had gone over my balance and all that. I hate PMS. - OH YEAH, was talkin about somethin' completely different.
Ok, so Tonya and I left Wal-Mart and went to her place to get ready to go out. We stopped by her boyfriend's work place and OMG he proposed to her !!! :D SOOO cool :) and then we left her fiance's work place and went to play pool. It was cool, but Amy totally kicked my ass, I suck at pool, so that's kind of to be expected- but seriously she rocks! I was afraid to even play against her after she kicked Tonya's ass, but it was still really fun. :D and that's the point. OK, then we all went back to their place, Amy, Tonya, and John (Tonya's BF) all share an apartment. I read alot of palms, shh- don't tell anyone but umm, alot of palm reading can not be done from a book, and so I just kind of went with my gut feeling, but everyone seemed to feel I was right on the money so it's all good :) We were all kinds of messed up- it was late, we'd been drinking' etc. I crashed on the floor. I was just too tired at almost 5 am to stay up any more, so I laid down and went to sleep :)
I got back home around 3 pm the next day. Then Friday I went out with Angie , I think I said something about that in another post. We are friends with Christy again. We went to the bar, and sat with like 20 or so people, we had 7 or 8 tables put together, and we got drunk. Then we went there again on Saturday, we didn't have as many people that night, but still had to put like 5 tables together, they had one dollar shots again, but I didn't get nearly as drunk. I did however kiss the DJ again :D I'm so bad, I didn't even think to get his number or anything. :( I kinda wanna see him again, but I can't cause I'm broke until the stupid bank fixes their mess- stoopid mean old bank :(
I painted alot, I didn't post everything- but I think I only left out one of them. Scott started calling me again. I said something about my blog so he went and looked at it and got all upset just cause I didn't talk about him - SO- Scott is a big dork- there. Umm.. Something else happened.... Ummmm... Dude, I like just totally forgot what happened on Sunday....? Oh well, I had a weird dream too... I'll post that later. Caitie painted another pic, and I have a pic of her holding her painting. I'll post that later too..

What do you get when you cross a...

Ok, this isn't really done yet and I'm mad that the GREENness of it isn't quite captured by the cam, but I had to share anyway. I look at this painting and think it looks like a cross between a leopard, a zebra, and a frog. :D

Paintings :)

Alright- don't anyone get all mad or anything. I just really didn't like one painting, and was in desperate need of canvas, and even though I had some really good things said about this one- IT HAD TO GO. So, like I said, don't get mad, I'll prolly try to recreate it the way I wanted it to be in the first place.

This is the one that is gone -


For details I think it's under "Chaos Factor".

This is what I painted over it with-

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The lighting is a little off ...

Blog neglect

I have been totally neglecting my blog lately. There are so many things I haven't posted simply because I haven't the time. It's awful. The phone keeps ringing, I'm always gone, or there are people here, there is always something.
I won't be here very long, going out with Angie and Christy tonight, yes Christy is back in our good graces. She thought I had initiated the kissing and he HAD been trying to kiss her but she says she kept pushing him away. I guess I should still be mad or something but life is too short for that.
Hmm.. I went out to play pool the other night with Tonya and Amy, then spent the night at their apartment, got back into reading palms a little bit. I had a blast, and will post more about that later.
Caitlyn is here again :D YAY! and wants to paint another picture, I think I'll start getting ready now and while I'm doing that she can paint to her heart's content. :)

Chaos Factor

These aren't the best pics, but my ceiling light went out and there is NO WAY I'm climbing up on a chair to change another light bulb :D I will get better pics pretty soon, just been really busy lately.

Pink and Plaid

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Purple

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