Neglected Blog

I have not posted a thing in almost a whole entire week!
I can't believe it's been so long.
I guess I just haven't really felt like talking(). I haven't even really been on YIM or MSNM or the phone. Can you believe it? Not even the phone!
I don't know what I've been doing. I still haven't been to the bar, it's been at least a month and a half by now.
Ok, I do kind of know what I've been doing. One whole day was taken up by Angie's kids- we were playing on Neopets.com, now I have to take care of like 8 Neopets. It was fun though. One day last week I went to this store that's going out of business (YAY! for cheap paint, BOOO for yet another craft store closing) and bought more presents for Christmas and some paint for myself. I got green and orange. They didn't have any black oil paint. I have never never never had black oil paint. I just wanna try it out. Just a little bit of black, just a tiny teensy little bitty dab and I'd be happy, but no, they had to run out right before I got there. At least I have a huge tube of white now.
So anyway, I've been painting. I've done several paintings that I like, and one that I don't like, and one isn't near complete so I have no opinion on it yet.
I'm kind of thinking about giving some people paintings for Christmas, that way I can justify spending money on paint instead of presents, but I don't know which paintings to give to which people. Mathew wants Blue Moon in acrylics, I don't know about anyone else though. I don't really like that painting, I don't see why other people like it so much. He says he likes that the moon kind of looks like an eye. I don't think I've taken a pic of that one yet, I'll have to remember to photo everything before wrapping anything.
Hmm.. what else?
Oh, sweetiepie is gone. I think he's like psycho or anti-social or just bental, I can't be too sure though. I do see now why his friends call him "Bitch".
I am thinking about just giving up on men completely . Don't get me wrong- it's not about him, it's just ... I think I'm like really really bad at picking men. I always seem to become attracted to the wrong guys. They seem all great at the beginning, then everything goes weird. For instance- suddenly they are like psycho clingy, I can't even leave the room without them at least starting to get up to follow me, or they are all devoted at first and then out of the blue it's over. I know I am not exactly the best girl-friend in the world. Although a few of my exes seem to think so, not everyone I've dated got to see that side of me, so a lot would most likely disagree with the few. Errrr, Ummm, ok I'm kind of in the middle of trying to finish this painting so I'm a little distracted- did that last sentence make much sense? Of course it made a little sense, but is it just me or did I like totally screw up the sentence structure on that one? Oh well, no biggie. I'm starting to like my work in progress. I need to wait until it dries to give her lips and a nose, but it's almost done, I think I might add a few little extra brush stokes here and there though. I need an opinion on it and the only person here is my grandma, and what I need to know can't be answered by her. I think the answer is "No" though.
OMG! Ok, I fixed some canned ravioli a little earlier and I didn't finish it yet, and I set it down a little too close to my paint thinner jar and a brush flew out of the jar (don't ask me how it happened, I was doing something and knocked it out of there and it went flying), and now there's paint thinner in my ravioli. Appetizing isn't it? So now I have to scour the kitchen looking for something else to eat. Isn't that just like too totally exciting? I think I say "OMG!" too much, what about you?
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Oh yeah, I was saying how I am going to give up on men. I'm going to stop thinking about them all. I don't need to waste my time thinking about any man ever ever again. Ok, all except that one. He just won't leave. I just have never ever ever been able to get him out of my mind. I don't like him though, so it's not the same. So, except for that one person, all men from now on are completely out of my thoughts, I don't ever ever think about any of them again. At least this week.

Sigh.
I'm tired. I'm bored. I'm whiney.
I have a headache, I've had it for about a week now and it won't go away. I keep saying I'm going to go to the doctor and get that shot that he was talking about, but so far I haven't. It's not really that bad though. Nothing has gone numb yet, there haven't been any really funky dreams (except this one, and it's not quite the same), and it only occasionally makes me tired. I'm tired right now. I don't want to nap though. I'll probably just put up with it until next week. I do need to go to the doctor though, I missed an appointment last week, and I don't have any refills on my medicines. I don't know why I missed that appointment. I don't have a good reason for it at all. I was tired, I didn't feel good, I laid down for a minute and ended up taking a nap. I hadn't told anyone specifically what time the appointment was for so noone woke me up. So my excuse is "I didn't feel good." I didn't go to the doctor because I didn't feel good. That's really schmart of me ain't it?
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I mentioned a weird dream. I don't know if I should post it though. It was odd... (Yes, weird AND odd) I don't remember much of it, and what I do is mixed together with another weird dream. If I post it then it MIGHT help me sort it out, but then again it might just freak everyone out.